I would declare a hundredth part of thy grace, were it not for the vainglory of the evil eye;
گفتمی از لطف تو جزوی ز صد ** گر نبودی طمطراق چشم بد
But from the evil venomous eye I have suffered spirit-crushing strokes.190
لیک از چشم بد زهراب دم ** زخمهای روحفرسا خوردهام
(Therefore) I will not give an eloquent description of thy state except allusively, by telling of the state of others.
جز به رمز ذکر حال دیگران ** شرح حالت مینیارم در بیان
(Really, however) this pretext too is one of the lures of the heart whereby the feet of the heart are (caught) in a mire.
این بهانه هم ز دستان دلیست ** که ازو پاهای دل اندر گلیست
Hundreds of hearts and souls are in love with the Maker, (but) the evil eye or the evil ear has hindered (them from seeking union with Him).
صد دل و جان عاشق صانع شده ** چشم بد یا گوش بد مانع شده
One (of them), indeed, (is) Bú Tálib, the Prophet's uncle: to him the revilement of the Arabs seemed terrible,
خود یکی بوطالب آن عم رسول ** مینمودش شنعهی عربان مهول
For (he thought), “What will the Arabs say of me? (They will say), ‘At the bidding of his nephew he has changed the (traditional) custom on which we rely.’”195
که چه گویندم عرب کز طفل خود ** او بگردانید دیدن معتمد
He (the Prophet) said to him, “O uncle, pronounce once the profession of faith, that I may plead with God for thee.”
گفتش ای عم یک شهادت تو بگو ** تا کنم با حق خصومت بهر تو
He (Bú Tálib) said, “But it will be spread abroad by hearsay: every secret that passes beyond the two (who share it) becomes common talk.
گفت لیکن فاش گردد ازسماع ** کل سر جاوز الاثنین شاع
I shall remain (a laughing-stock) on the tongues of these Arabs: because of this I shall become despicable in their sight.”
من بمانم در زبان این عرب ** پش ایشان خوار گردم زین سبب
But if the predestined grace had been (granted) to him, how should this faintheartedness have existed (simultaneously) with God's pull (towards Himself)?
لیک گر بودیش لطف ما سبق ** کی بدی این بددلی با جذب حق
O Thou who art the Help of those who seek help, help (me to escape) from this pillory of wicked acts of free-will.200
الغیاث ای تو غیاث المستغیث ** زین دو شاخهی اختیارات خبیث
By the heart's deceit and guile I have been so discomfited that I am left unable (even) to lament.
من ز دستان و ز مکر دل چنان ** مات گشتم که بماندم از فغان
Who am I? Heaven, with its hundred (mighty) businesses, cried out for help against this ambush of free-will,
من که باشم چرخ با صد کار و بار ** زین کمین فریاد کرد از اختیار
Saying, “Deliver me from this pillory of free-will, O gracious and long-suffering Lord!
که ای خداوند کریم و بردبار ** ده امانم زین دو شاخهی اختیار
The one-way pull on the straight Path is better than the two ways of perplexity, O gracious One.
جذب یک راههی صراط المستقیم ** به ز دو راه تردد ای کریم
Although Thou art the entire (only) goal of these two ways, yet indeed this duality is agonising to the spirit.205
زین دو ره گرچه همه مقصد توی ** لیک خود جان کندن آمد این دوی
Although the destination of these two ways is unto Thee alone, yet the battle is never like the banquet.”
زین دو ره گرچه به جز تو عزم نیست ** لیک هرگز رزم همچون بزم نیست
Hearken to the explanation thereof given by God in the Qur’án, (namely) the Verse they shrank from bearing it.
در نبی بشنو بیانش از خدا ** آیت اشفقن ان یحملنها
This perplexity in the heart is like war: (when a man is perplexed he says, “I wonder) whether this is better for my case or that.”
این تردد هست در دل چون وغا ** کین بود به یا که آن حال مرا
In perplexity the fear (of failure) and the hope of success are always in conflict with each other, (now) advancing and (now) retreating.
در تردد میزند بر همدگر ** خوف و اومید بهی در کر و فر
A prayer and a seeking refuge with God from the temptation of free-will and from the temptation of those things that minister to free-will; for the heavens and the earths dreaded and feared free-will and the things that minister to it, while the nature of Man is addicted to seeking free-will and all that ministers to his free-will; as (for example) if he is sick he feels himself to have little free-will and desires health, which ministers to free-will, in order that his free-will may be increased; and he desires high office in order that his free-will may be increased. And it was excess of free-will and of whatever ministers to it that caused the wrath of God to fall upon the peoples of the past. No one ever saw Pharaoh destitute.
مناجات و پناه جستن به حق از فتنهی اختیار و از فتنهی اسباب اختیار کی سماوات و ارضین از اختیار و اسباب اختیار شکوهیدند و ترسیدند و خلقت آدمی مولع افتاد بر طلب اختیار و اسباب اختیار خویش چنانک بیمار باشد خود را اختیار کم بیند صحت خواهد کی سبب اختیارست تا اختیارش بیفزاید و منصب خواهد تا اختیارش بیفزاید و مهبط قهر حق در امم ماضیه فرط اختیار و اسباب اختیار بوده است هرگز فرعون بینوا کس ندیده است
From Thee first came this ebb and flow within me; else, O glorious One, this sea (of mine) was still.210
اولم این جزر و مد از تو رسید ** ورنه ساکن بود این بحر ای مجید
From the same source whence Thou gavest me this perplexity, graciously (now) make me unperplexed likewise.
هم از آنجا کین تردد دادیم ** بیتردد کن مرا هم از کرم
Thou art afflicting me. Ah, help (me), O Thou by whose affliction men are (made weak) as women.
ابتلاام میکنی آه الغیاث ** ای ذکور از ابتلاات چون اناث
How long (will) this affliction (continue)? Do not (afflict me), O Lord! Bestow on me one path, do not make me follow ten paths!
تا بکی این ابتلا یا رب مکن ** مذهبیام بخش و دهمذهب مکن