I am (like) a camel: I carry (my load) as long as I can, (but) when I fall down exhausted, I am glad to be killed.4165
اشترم من تا توانم می‌کشم ** چون فتادم زار با کشتن خوشم
If there are a hundred moats full of severed heads, ’tis an absolute pleasantry in comparison with my anguish.
پر سر مقطوع اگر صد خندق است ** پیش درد من مزاج مطلق است
Nevermore in fear and dread will I beat such a drum of passion under a blanket.
من نخواهم زد دگر از خوف و بیم ** این چنین طبل هوا زیر گلیم
Now I will plant my banner in the open plain: (let my fate be) either to lose my head or (to behold) the face of my adored one!
من علم اکنون به صحرا می‌زنم ** یا سراندازی و یا روی صنم
The throat that is not worthy of that wine—’tis best it should be cut by blows of the sword;
حلق کو نبود سزای آن شراب ** آن بریده به به شمشیر و ضراب
The eye that is not (rejoiced) in abundance by union with her—such an eye is best white (with disease) and blind;4170
دیده کو نبود ز وصلش در فره ** آن چنان دیده سپید کور به
The ear that is not worthy of (hearing) her secret—tear it off, for it is no good on the head;
گوش کان نبود سزای راز او ** بر کنش که نبود آن بر سر نکو
The hand in which there is not the (requisite) amount (to win her favour)—’tis best that it should be chopped off by the butcher's knife;
اندر آن دستی که نبود آن نصاب ** آن شکسته به به ساطور قصاب
The foot by whose faring the spirit is not led into her narcissus-plot—
آنچنان پایی که از رفتار او ** جان نپیوندد به نرگس زار او
Such a foot is best in iron (chains), for such a foot is ultimately (the cause of) headache (affliction).
آنچنان پا در حدید اولیترست ** که آنچنان پا عاقبت درد سرست
[Setting forth (the case of) the earnest seeker who does not refrain from exerting himself to the utmost, although he knows that the amplitude of God's bounty may cause the object of his desire to reach him from a different quarter and by means of work of a different kind which he has never imagined; but since all his thoughts and hopes are fixed on this particular method (of attaining his object), he continues to knock at this same door, (knowing that) maybe God most High will cause his appointed portion to reach him through some other door which he has not foreseen, ‘and will provide for him from a quarter on which he does not reckon’—‘Man proposes but God disposes.’ And, (again), a slave (of God) may conceive, as beseems a slave, that although he keeps knocking at this (particular) door he will be supplied from another door; and (nevertheless) God most High may cause his portion to reach him through this very door (at which he is knocking). In short, all these (doors) are the doors of one Palace. And the exposition thereof.]
بیان مجاهد کی دست از مجاهده باز ندارد اگر چه داند بسطت عطاء حق را کی آن مقصود از طرف دیگر و به سبب نوع عمل دیگر بدو رساند کی در وهم او نبوده باشد او همه وهم و اومید درین طریق معین بسته باشد حلقه‌ی همین در می‌زند بوک حق تعالی آن روزی را از در دیگر بدو رساند کی او آن تدبیر نکرده باشد و یرزقه من حیث لا یحتسب العبد یدبر والله یقدر و بود کی بنده را وهم بندگی بود کی مرا از غیر این در برساند اگر چه من حلقه‌ی این در می‌زنم حق تعالی او را هم ازین در روزی رساند فی‌الجمله این همه درهای یکی سرایست مع تقریره
Either this desire of mine will be fulfilled on this journey or when I return home from the journey.4175
یا درین ره آیدم آن کام من ** یا چو باز آیم ز ره سوی وطن
It may be that (the fulfilment of) my desire depends on going abroad and that after I have gone abroad I shall attain (to it) at home.
بوک موقوفست کامم بر سفر ** چون سفر کردم بیابم در حضر
I will seek the Beloved with all my might and energy until I know whether I need not have sought (Him).
یار را چندین بجویم جد و چست ** که بدانم که نمی‌بایست جست
How should (the mystery of) His being with me enter my (spiritual) ear unless I wander round the world?
آن معیت کی رود در گوش من ** تا نگردم گرد دوران زمن
How should I apprehend the mystery of His being with me except after (making) long journeys?”
کی کنم من از معیت فهم راز ** جز که از بعد سفرهای دراز
God hath said that He is with us, but He hath sealed the heart in order that it (the real meaning) may enter the heart's ear contrariwise (indirectly), not directly.4180
حق معیت گفت و دل را مهر کرد ** تا که عکس آید به گوش دل نه طرد
When he (the seeker) has made (many) journeys and performed the duties of the Way, after that (and not before) the seal is removed from his heart.
چون سفرها کرد و داد راه داد ** بعد از آن مهر از دل او بر گشاد
As (in the arithmetical method of) “the two errors,” the excellent (successful) calculation (only) becomes clear to him after two mistakes.
چون خطایین آن حساب با صفا ** گرددش روشن ز بعد دو خطا
After that, he says (to himself), “If I had known (the real nature of) this being with God, how should I have searched for Him?
بعد از آن گوید اگر دانستمی ** این معیت را کی او را جستمی
(But) the knowledge thereof depended on journeying: that knowledge is not to be gained by keenness of thought.”
دانش آن بود موقوف سفر ** ناید آن دانش به تیزی فکر
’Tis just as the payment of the Shaykh's debts was contingent and dependent on the weeping of that (young) creature.4185
آنچنان که وجه وام شیخ بود ** بسته و موقوف گریه‌ی آن وجود
(When) the confectioner's boy wept bitterly, the debts of the venerable Shaykh were discharged.
کودک حلواییی بگریست زار ** توخته شد وام آن شیخ کبار
That spiritual tale has already been related in the course of the Mathnawí.
گفته شد آن داستان معنوی ** پیش ازین اندر خلال مثنوی
He (God) puts in thy heart the fear of (losing) a certain position, in order that no other (position) may be an object of hope to thee.
در دلت خوف افکند از موضعی ** تا نباشد غیر آنت مطمعی
To thy hope (of gaining thy wish from that quarter) He attaches another advantage (beneficial result); but He grants thee thy wish from (the hands of) some one else.
در طمع فایده‌ی دیگر نهد ** وآن مرادت از کسی دیگر دهد