God hath changed your evil deeds (to good), in order that what has preceded may become wholly (acts of) piety.2225
سیاتت را مبدل کرد حق ** تا همه طاعت شود آن ما سبق
O master, cleave bravely to a repentance (like that) of Nasúh: strive earnestly both with body and spirit.
خواجه بر توبه‌ی نصوحی خوش به تن ** کوششی کن هم به جان و هم به تن
Hear from me the description of this repentance of Nasúh: (if) you have believed (in it before), (yet now) believe afresh.
شرح این توبه‌ی نصوح از من شنو ** بگرویدستی و لیک از نو گرو
Story explaining the repentance of Nasúh. As milk that flows from the teat never returns to the teat, so he who has repented like Nasúh will never think of that sin in the way of desire; nay, his loathing will increase continually, and that loathing is a proof that he has experienced the delight of being accepted (as a sincere penitent), and that the old lust has ceased to give delight, and that the former (delight) has established itself in the place of the latter, as it has been said (in verse): “Nothing breaks off (one) love except another love: why don't you take a friend (who is) fairer than he?” And when his (the penitent's) heart desires to sin again, it is a sign that he has not experienced the delight of acceptance, and that the delight of acceptance has not superseded the delight of sin, and that he has not (yet) become (like the righteous of whom God saith), “We will surely dispose him to ease,” but that the (sinful) delight (spoken) of (in the text), “We will surely dispose him to hardship,” is still remaining in him.
حکایت در بیان توبه‌ی نصوح کی چنانک شیر از پستان بیرون آید باز در پستان نرود آنک توبه نصوحی کرد هرگز از آن گناه یاد نکند به طریق رغبت بلک هر دم نفرتش افزون باشد و آن نفرت دلیل آن بود کی لذت قبول یافت آن شهوت اول بی‌لذت شد این به جای آن نشست نبرد عشق را جز عشق دیگر چرا یاری نجویی زو نکوتر وانک دلش باز بدان گناه رغبت می‌کند علامت آنست کی لذت قبول نیافته است و لذت قبول به جای آن لذت گناه ننشسته است سنیسره للیسری نشده است لذت و نیسره للعسری باقیست بر وی
There was aforetime a man named Nasúh: he earned his livelihood by shampooing women.
بود مردی پیش ازین نامش نصوح ** بد ز دلاکی زن او را فتوح
His face resembled a female countenance: he was disguising his manliness.
بود روی او چو رخسار زنان ** مردی خود را همی‌کرد او نهان
He was a shampooer in the women's bath, and very active in (contriving) fraud and deceit.2230
او به حمام زنان دلاک بود ** در دغا و حیله بس چالاک بود
For (many) years he went on shampooing, and no one suspected the (real) nature and secret of his fondness (for that employment).
سالها می‌کرد دلاکی و کس ** بو نبرد از حال و سر آن هوس
(’Twas) because, (though) his voice and countenance were woman-like, yet his lust was at full strength and wide-awake.
زانک آواز و رخش زن‌وار بود ** لیک شهوت کامل و بیدار بود
He wore the chádar and snood and veil, (but he was) a man lustful and in the prime of youth.
چادر و سربند پوشیده و نقاب ** مرد شهوانی و در غره‌ی شباب
In this fashion that enamoured man was massaging and washing the daughters of emperors,
دختران خسروان را زین طریق ** خوش همی‌مالید و می‌شست آن عشیق
(And though) he often resolved on repentance and was turning his back (on sin), the miscreant carnal soul would always tear his repentance to pieces.2235
توبه‌ها می‌کرد و پا در می‌کشید ** نفس کافر توبه‌اش را می‌درید
That evil-doer (Nasúh) went to a gnostic and said, “Remember me in a prayer.”
رفت پیش عارفی آن زشت‌کار ** گفت ما را در دعایی یاد دار
The holy man knew his secret but, (acting) like the forbearance of God, he did not divulge it;
سر او دانست آن آزادمرد ** لیک چون حلم خدا پیدا نکرد
(For) on his (the gnostic's) lips is a lock, while his heart is full of mysteries: his lips are silent, though his heart is filled with voices.
بر لبش قفلست و در دل رازها ** لب خموش و دل پر از آوازها
Gnostics, who have drunk of the cup of God, have known the mysteries and kept them hidden.
عارفان که جام حق نوشیده‌اند ** رازها دانسته و پوشیده‌اند
Whosoever has been taught the mysteries of the (Divine) action, his lips are sealed and closed.2240
هر کرا اسرار کار آموختند ** مهر کردند و دهانش دوختند
He (the holy man) laughed softly and said, “O evil-natured one, may God cause thee to repent of that which thou knowest!”
سست خندید و بگفت ای بدنهاد ** زانک دانی ایزدت توبه دهاد
Explaining that the prayer of the gnostic who is united with God and his petition to God are like the petition of God to Himself, for “I am to him an ear and an eye and a tongue and a hand.” God hath said, “And thou didst not throw when thou threwest, but God threw”; and there are many Verses (of the Qur’án) and Traditions and Narrations on this subject. And (what follows is) an exposition of the way in which God devises means in order that, taking hold of the sinner's ear, they may lead him to the repentance of Nasúh.
در بیان آنک دعای عارف واصل و درخواست او از حق هم‌چو درخواست حقست از خویشتن کی کنت له سمعا و بصرا و لسانا و یدا و قوله و ما رمیت اذ رمیت و لکن الله رمی و آیات و اخبار و آثار درین بسیارست و شرح سبب ساختن حق تا مجرم را گوش گرفته بتوبه‌ی نصوح آورد
That prayer traversed the Seven Heavens: the fortune of the miserable wretch (Nasúh) at last became good;
آن دعا از هفت گردون در گذشت ** کار آن مسکین به آخر خوب گشت
For the prayer of a Shaykh (Spiritual Director) is not like every prayer: he is naughted (fání) and his words are the words of God.
که آن دعای شیخ نه چون هر دعاست ** فانی است و گفت او گفت خداست
Since God asks and begs of Himself, how, then, should He refuse to grant His own prayer?
چون خدا از خود سال و کد کند ** پس دعای خویش را چون رد کند
The action of the Almighty produced a means that delivered him (Nasúh) from execration and woe.2245
یک سبب انگیخت صنع ذوالجلال ** که رهانیدش ز نفرین و وبال
(Whilst) he was filling a basin in the bath, a jewel belonging to the King's daughter was lost.
اندر آن حمام پر می‌کرد طشت ** گوهری از دختر شه یاوه گشت
A jewel was lost from her ear-rings, and every woman (in the bath began to take part) in the search (for it).
گوهری از حلقه‌های گوش او ** یاوه گشت و هر زنی در جست و جو
Then they bolted the door of the bath (and made it) fast, in order that they might first look for the jewel in the folds of the furniture.
پس در حمام را بستند سخت ** تا بجویند اولش در پیچ رخت
They searched (all) these articles, but it was not brought to light (there), nor was any person who had stolen the jewel discovered either.
رختها جستند و آن پیدا نشد ** دزد گوهر نیز هم رسوا نشد
Then they began to search incontinently with all their might in the mouths and ears (of the bathers) and in every cleft.2250
پس به جد جستن گرفتند از گزاف ** در دهان و گوش و اندر هر شکاف
In rima inferiore et superiore and everywhere they searched for the pearl belonging to a beauteous oyster-shell. [In lower and upper (bodily) apertures and everywhere they searched for the pearl belonging to a beauteous oyster-shell.]
در شکاف تحت و فوق و هر طرف ** جست و جو کردند دری خوش صدف
Proclamation was made: “Strip, all (of you), whoever ye are, whether ye are old or young!”
بانگ آمد که همه عریان شوید ** هر که هستید ار عجوز و گر نوید
The lady-in-waiting began to search them, one by one, (in the hope) that the marvellous pearl might be discovered.
یک به یک را حاجبه جستن گرفت ** تا پدید آید گهردانه‌ی شگفت
Nasúh, (stricken) with fear, went into a private place: his face (was) yellow (pale) and his lips blue on account of a (great) terror (which possessed him).
آن نصوح از ترس شد در خلوتی ** روی زرد و لب کبود از خشیتی
He saw death before his eyes: he went (to hide himself), trembling like a leaf.2255
پیش چشم خویش او می‌دید مرگ ** رفت و می‌لرزید او مانند برگ
He cried, “O Lord, many a time have I turned away (from evil courses) and (then) broken my vows of penitence and my promises.
گفت یارب بارها برگشته‌ام ** توبه‌ها و عهدها بشکسته‌ام
I have done the (foul) things that were fit to be done by me, so that such a black flood (of calamity) has arrived.
کرده‌ام آنها که از من می‌سزید ** تا چنین سیل سیاهی در رسید
If my turn to be searched shall come, oh, what cruel sufferings must my soul endure!
نوبت جستن اگر در من رسد ** وه که جان من چه سختیها کشد
A hundred sparks of fire have fallen on my heart: perceive in my orisons the smell of my (burning) heart.
در جگر افتاده‌استم صد شرر ** در مناجاتم ببین بوی جگر
May anguish like this not be the infidel's (portion)! I clutch the skirt of (Thy) mercy. Help, help!2260
این چنین اندوه کافر را مباد ** دامن رحمت گرفتم داد داد
Would that my mother had not borne me, or that a lion had devoured me in the pasture!
کاشکی مادر نزادی مر مرا ** یا مرا شیری بخوردی در چرا
O God, do Thou what is worthy to be done by Thee, for from every hole a snake is biting me.
ای خدا آن کن که از تو می‌سزد ** که ز هر سوراخ مارم می‌گزد
I have a soul of stone, and my heart is of iron, otherwise they would have turned into blood in this sorrow and lamentation.
جان سنگین دارم و دل آهنین ** ورنه خون گشتی درین رنج و حنین
The time presses and I have (only) one moment (left): act in kingly fashion, come to my aid!
وقت تنگ آمد مرا و یک نفس ** پادشاهی کن مرا فریاد رس
If Thou wilt cover me up (conceal my sin) this time, (henceforth) I repent of everything that ought not to be done.2265
گر مرا این بار ستاری کنی ** توبه کردم من ز هر ناکردنی
Accept my repentance this once more, that I may gird myself with a hundred belts for repentance.
توبه‌ام بپذیر این بار دگر ** تا ببندم بهر توبه صد کمر
If I commit any fault (in keeping my vow) this time, then do not hearken again to my prayer and words (of entreaty).”
من اگر این بار تقصیری کنم ** پس دگر مشنو دعا و گفتنم
Thus was he moaning while a hundred tears flowed (from his eyes). “I have fallen,” he cried, “into the hands of the executioner and policeman.
این همی زارید و صد قطره روان ** که در افتادم به جلاد و عوان
Let no Frank die such a death: may no mulhid (Ismá‘ílí or ‘Assassin’) have (cause to make) this lamentation!”
تا نمیرد هیچ افرنگی چنین ** هیچ ملحد را مبادا این حنین
He was uttering cries of mourning over his soul, (for) he saw the face of Azrael (coming) nearer and nearer.2270
نوحه‌ها کرد او بر جان خویش ** روی عزرائیل دیده پیش پیش
He cried “O God, O God” so often that door and wall joined with him (echoed his words).
ای خدا و ای خدا چندان بگفت ** که آن در و دیوار با او گشت جفت
He was deep in “O Lord” and “O Lord” (when suddenly) from amidst the (people engaged in) search came the (following) announcement.
در میان یارب و یارب بد او ** بانگ آمد از میان جست و جو
[How the turn came for Nasúh to be searched, and how a voice proclaimed—“We have searched them all, (now) search Nasúh”; and how Nasúh became senseless from terror, and how after extreme oppression of spirit the way of deliverance was opened to him, as the Prophet of God—may God bless and save him!— used to say, whenever sickness or anxiety overtook him, “O distress, become severe: then thou wilt pass away.”]
نوبت جستن رسیدن به نصوح و آواز آمدن که همه را جستیم نصوح را بجویید و بیهوش شدن نصوح از آن هیبت و گشاده شدن کار بعد از نهایت بستگی کماکان یقول رسول الله صلی الله علیه و سلم اذا اصابه مرض او هم اشتدی ازمة تنفرجی
“We have searched them all: come forward, O Nasúh.” Thereupon he lost his senses, his spirit took wing.
جمله را جستیم پیش آی ای نصوح ** گشت بیهوش آن زمان پرید روح
He fell like a broken wall: his consciousness and understanding departed, he became like lifeless matter.
هم‌چو دیوار شکسته در فتاد ** هوش و عقلش رفت شد او چون جماد