This perplexity in the heart is like war: (when a man is perplexed he says, “I wonder) whether this is better for my case or that.”
این تردد هست در دل چون وغا ** کین بود به یا که آن حال مرا
In perplexity the fear (of failure) and the hope of success are always in conflict with each other, (now) advancing and (now) retreating.
در تردد می‌زند بر همدگر ** خوف و اومید بهی در کر و فر
A prayer and a seeking refuge with God from the temptation of free-will and from the temptation of those things that minister to free-will; for the heavens and the earths dreaded and feared free-will and the things that minister to it, while the nature of Man is addicted to seeking free-will and all that ministers to his free-will; as (for example) if he is sick he feels himself to have little free-will and desires health, which ministers to free-will, in order that his free-will may be increased; and he desires high office in order that his free-will may be increased. And it was excess of free-will and of whatever ministers to it that caused the wrath of God to fall upon the peoples of the past. No one ever saw Pharaoh destitute.
مناجات و پناه جستن به حق از فتنه‌ی اختیار و از فتنه‌ی اسباب اختیار کی سماوات و ارضین از اختیار و اسباب اختیار شکوهیدند و ترسیدند و خلقت آدمی مولع افتاد بر طلب اختیار و اسباب اختیار خویش چنانک بیمار باشد خود را اختیار کم بیند صحت خواهد کی سبب اختیارست تا اختیارش بیفزاید و منصب خواهد تا اختیارش بیفزاید و مهبط قهر حق در امم ماضیه فرط اختیار و اسباب اختیار بوده است هرگز فرعون بی‌نوا کس ندیده است
From Thee first came this ebb and flow within me; else, O glorious One, this sea (of mine) was still.210
اولم این جزر و مد از تو رسید ** ورنه ساکن بود این بحر ای مجید
From the same source whence Thou gavest me this perplexity, graciously (now) make me unperplexed likewise.
هم از آنجا کین تردد دادیم ** بی‌تردد کن مرا هم از کرم
Thou art afflicting me. Ah, help (me), O Thou by whose affliction men are (made weak) as women.
ابتلاام می‌کنی آه الغیاث ** ای ذکور از ابتلاات چون اناث
How long (will) this affliction (continue)? Do not (afflict me), O Lord! Bestow on me one path, do not make me follow ten paths!
تا بکی این ابتلا یا رب مکن ** مذهبی‌ام بخش و ده‌مذهب مکن
I am (like) an emaciated camel, and my back is wounded by my free-will which resembles a pack-saddle.
اشتری‌ام لاغری و پشت ریش ** ز اختیار هم‌چو پالان‌شکل خویش
At one moment this pannier weighs heavily on this side, at another moment that pannier sags to that side.215
این کژاوه گه شود این سو گران ** آن کژاوه گه شود آن سو کشان
Let the ill-balanced load drop from me, that I may behold the meadow of the pious.
بفکن از من حمل ناهموار را ** تا ببینم روضه‌ی ابرار را
(Then), like the Fellows of the Cave, I shall browse on the orchard of Bounty— not awake, nay, they are asleep.
هم‌چو آن اصحاب کهف از باغ جود ** می‌چرم ایقاظ نی بل هم رقود
I shall recline on the right or on the left, I shall not roll save involuntarily, like a ball,
خفته باشم بر یمین یا بر یسار ** برنگردم جز چو گو بی‌اختیار
Just as Thou, O Lord of the Judgement, turnest me over either to the right or to the left.
هم به تقلیب تو تا ذات الیمین ** یا سوی ذات الشمال ای رب دین
Hundreds of thousands of years I was flying (to and fro) involuntarily, like the motes in the air.220
صد هزاران سال بودم در مطار ** هم‌چو ذرات هوا بی‌اختیار
If I have forgotten that time and state, (yet) the migration in sleep (to the spiritual world) recalls it to my memory.
گر فراموشم شدست آن وقت و حال ** یادگارم هست در خواب ارتحال
(Every night) I escape from this four-branched cross and spring away from this (confined) halting-place into the (spacious) pasture of the spirit.
می‌رهم زین چارمیخ چارشاخ ** می‌جهم در مسرح جان زین مناخ
From the nurse, Sleep, I suck the milk of those bygone days of mine, O Lord.
شیر آن ایام ماضیهای خود ** می‌چشم از دایه‌ی خواب ای صمد
All the (people in the) world are fleeing from their free-will and (self-)existence to their drunken (unconscious) side.
جمله عالم ز اختیار و هست خود ** می‌گریزد در سر سرمست خود
In order that for awhile they may be delivered from sobriety (consciousness), they lay upon themselves the opprobrium of wine and minstrelsy.225
تا دمی از هوشیاری وا رهند ** ننگ خمر و زمر بر خود می‌نهند
All know that this existence is a snare, that volitional thought and memory are a hell.
جمله دانسته کای این هستی فخ است ** فکر و ذکر اختیاری دوزخ است
They are fleeing from selfhood into selflessness either by means of intoxication or by means of (some engrossing) occupation, O well-conducted man.
می‌گریزند از خودی در بیخودی ** یا به مستی یا به شغل ای مهتدی
Thou (O God) drawest the soul back from that state of not-being because it entered into unconsciousness without Thy command.
نفس را زان نیستی وا می‌کشی ** زانک بی‌فرمان شد اندر بیهشی
Neither for the Jinn (genies) nor for mankind is it (possible) to pierce through the prison of the regions of the temporal world.
لیس للجن و لا للانس ان ** ینفذوا من حبس اقطار الزمن
There is no piercing through the cavities of the highest heavens save by the power of Guidance.230
لا نفوذ الا بسلطان الهدی ** من تجاویف السموات العلی
There is no guidance save by a power that preserves the spirit of the devout from the keepers of the shooting stars.
لا هدی الا بسلطان یقی ** من حراس الشهب روح المتقی
There is no way (admittance) for any one, till he become naughted, into the audience-chamber of (Divine) Majesty.
هیچ کس را تا نگردد او فنا ** نیست ره در بارگاه کبریا
What is the means of ascension to Heaven? This not-being. Not-being is the creed and religion of the lovers (of God).
چیست معراج فلک این نیستی ** عاشقان را مذهب و دین نیستی
From self-abasement in the way of Love the fur jacket and rustic shoon became the prayer-niche of Ayáz.
پوستین و چارق آمد از نیاز ** در طریق عشق محراب ایاز
Even though he was beloved by the king (Mahmúd), and was charming and beauteous outwardly and inwardly—235
گرچه او خود شاه را محبوب بود ** ظاهر و باطن لطیف و خوب بود
(For) he had become devoid of any arrogance or ostentation or malice, and his face was a mirror for the beauty of the king—
گشته بی‌کبر و ریا و کینه‌ای ** حسن سلطان را رخش آیینه‌ای
(Yet ’twas only) because he was far removed from his (self-) existence, (that) the end of his affair was praiseworthy.
چونک از هستی خود او دور شد ** منتهای کار او محمود بد
The steadfastness of Ayáz was all the firmer forasmuch as he was taking (those) precautions in fear of arrogance.
زان قوی‌تر بود تمکین ایاز ** که ز خوف کبر کردی احتراز
He had been purified, and he had come and smitten the neck of (had beheaded) arrogance and selfishness.
او مهذب گشته بود و آمده ** کبر را و نفس را گردن زده
He was practising these devices either for the purpose of instructing (others) or for the sake of some principle of wisdom far removed from fear;240
یا پی تعلیم می‌کرد آن حیل ** یا برای حکمتی دور از وجل
Or (perhaps) the sight of his rustic shoon pleased him because (self-)existence is a shutter against the breeze of not-being,
یا که دید چارقش زان شد پسند ** کز نسیم نیستی هستیست بند
(And he looked at them) in order that the charnel-house which is (built) on not-being might open, and that he might feel the breeze of vitality and life.
تا گشاید دخمه کان بر نیستیست ** تا بیاید آن نسیم عیش و زیست
The wealth and riches and silks of this travellers' halt are a chain on the light-footed spirit.
ملک و مال و اطلس این مرحله ** هست بر جان سبک‌رو سلسله
The spirit espied the golden chain and was beguiled: it remained in the hole of a dungeon (far) from the open country.
سلسله‌ی زرین بدید و غره گشت ** ماند در سوراخ چاهی جان ز دشت
Its (the world's) appearance is (that of) Paradise, (but) in reality it is a hell; it is a viper full of venom, though its figure is (that of) a rose-cheeked (beauty).245
صورتش جنت به معنی دوزخی ** افعیی پر زهر و نقشش گل رخی
Although Hell-fire does no injury to the true believer, yet ’tis still better to pass on from that place (and leave it behind).
گرچه مؤمن را سقر ندهد ضرر ** لیک هم بهتر بود زانجا گذر
Although Hell keeps its torment far from him, yet in any case Paradise is better for him.
گرچه دوزخ دور دارد زو نکال ** لیک جنت به ورا فی کل حال
O ye deficient (in understanding), beware of this rose-cheeked one who at the time of intercourse becomes (like) a hell.
الحذر ای ناقصان زین گلرخی ** که بگاه صحبت آمد دوزخی
Story of the Hindú slave who had secretly fallen in love with his master's daughter. On learning that the girl was betrothed to the son of a nobleman, the slave sickened and began to waste away. No physician could diagnose his malady, and he (the slave) durst not tell.
حکایت غلام هندو کی به خداوندزاده‌ی خود پنهان هوای آورده بود چون دختر را با مهتر زاده‌ای عقد کردند غلام خبر یافت رنجور شد و می‌گداخت و هیچ طبیب علت او را در نمی‌یافت و او را زهره‌ی گفتن نه
A certain Khwája had a Hindú slave whom he had educated and enlivened (with knowledge).
خواجه‌ای را بود هندو بنده‌ای ** پروریده کرده او را زنده‌ای
He had taught him science and all polite accomplishments; he had lighted the candle of erudition in his heart.250
علم و آدابش تمام آموخته ** در دلش شمع هنر افروخته
That beneficent man had brought him up indulgently from childhood in the lap of kindness.
پروریدش از طفولیت به ناز ** در کنار لطف آن اکرام‌ساز
This Khwája had also a fair daughter, silver-limbed, lovely, and of excellent disposition.
بود هم این خواجه را خوش دختری ** سیم‌اندامی گشی خوش‌گوهری
When the girl had almost reached womanhood, the suitors (for her hand) were offering heavy dowries,
چون مراهق گشت دختر طالبان ** بذل می‌کردند کابین گران
And there was continually coming to him (the Khwája) from every nobleman a wooer to ask for the girl (in marriage).
می‌رسیدش از سوی هر مهتری ** بهر دختر دم به دم خوزه‌گری
The Khwája said (to himself), “Wealth has no permanence: it comes in the morning, and at night it goes in all directions (is scattered to the winds).255
گفت خواجه مال را نبود ثبات ** روز آید شب رود اندر جهات
Physical beauty too has no importance, for a (rosy) face is made yellow (pale) by a single thorn-scratch.
حسن صورت هم ندارد اعتبار ** که شود رخ زرد از یک زخم خار
Noble birth also is of small account, for he (such an one) is befooled by money and horses.”
سهل باشد نیز مهترزادگی ** که بود غره به مال و بارگی